unlike painting where you apply layers onto a canvas…adding on to your canvas with outside things….sculpting is the opposite…it is a chipping away at the piece of stone getting worked on….YOU!…this is why the ancient sages said…”know thyself”…….only you can work on yourself…….chipping away at the imperfections to bring about the perfectly polished brick…worthy to be used in the house of god
another allegory of the same thing……of gaining control over your ego….would be st george slaying the dragon…..confronting the dark in yourself….(we all have a light and a dark side)……..the things difficult to confront..it would also be jesus riding/controlling the stubborn donkey
according to the occult teachings….man has a divine and an animal nature….or a winter part of the “inner” zodiac and a summer part of our “inner” zodiac….and the two wrestle for control….we’ve seen it in cartoon form as the angel and the devil on each shoulder
when we chip away at the ashlar within…….we present ourselves as worthy to be part of the greater structure
1 Peter 2:5New International Version (NIV)
5 you also, like living stones, are being built into a spiritual house[a] to be a holy priesthood, offering spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ.
and again……a brick is a 6 sided thing…..remember mankind is hexed with time?….(hex or sex =six)…..6 is man’s number
this symbol below represents the sepher yetzirah….lets look a little closer at it’s meaning
notice the triangle in the middle?
it has three hebrew letters in it
at the top…..aleph
these are the three “mother letters”
however…what does that mean?
here’s what it means……it stands for many things…the trinity of christianity….the hindu gods brahma vishnu and shiva etc…..in the zodiac it’s the cardinal…fixed….mutable signs
in kabbalah it is the three top spheres of the tree of life…kether,chokmah and binah
however….it also represents the three dimensions!
according to the sepher yetzirah the three letters stretch themselves out into infinity
aleph represents updown….height
mem represents east and west….breadth
shin represents north and south….length
see the diagram above….take your time and see the three letters….aleph… the wee red line …..up and down
mem the blue line ……..east and west
and shin…..the pink line…….north and south
they are the three dimensions in the cube above
next are the seven “double” letters…..(notice the black 7 rayed star in the sepher yetzirah picture above)…why seven “double letters?”….because they can be uttered with a hard and soft tone…they can’t make their mind up!….they are contrasts…..7 opposites
that’s why you can have 7 virtues and 7 vices…….and 7 brides for 7 brothers!
they are the magnificent seven……..the seven samurai………the seven sisters
the 7 planets
the seven letters are 7 opposites
beth is mercury
gimel is the moon
daleth is venus
kaph is jupiter
peh is mars
resh is the sun
and our old friend….(no pun intended) tau….tau is saturn….”old father time”…mr alpha and omega himself…the old crony…chronus/saturn
they are the green letters in the image above
beth is above…also mercury
gimel is below…and the moon
daleth is east….and venus
kaph is west….and jupiter
peh is north……and mars
resh is south….and the sun
and guess what letter holds the middle……holds it all together
tau………saturn….he holds the “6 dimensional twins” together…again he holds the cube together….he holds the 6 together….that number 6 again
saturn/tau is hidden in the cube….holding the 6 dimensional twins together
again…this is why mankind has been hexed….hex means six……and interestingly hex also means witch in german…..see my upcoming blog on halloween for more info!
and again….how interesting that saturn holds the 6 together and saturn has a hexagon on its north pole!
he is the ruler of this world….saturn and the restrictive pull….holding the cube together….restriction….binding…..saturn is all about holding you back
he is the timelord…saturn/chronos is where we get the word “chronology” from..saturn is known as the black cube as said before
so…..this is why saturn is represented as a black cube!
the tau holds the centre…and tau is saturn….the letter tau represents the planet saturn!
saturn holds this 3D world together…….or in biblical terms…satan is the ruler of the world!
and saturns colour is black……again…hence the black cube
what about the 12 letters?……in the sepher yetzirah pic above….notice the star on the outside with the 12 rays?
they represent the 12 constellations of the zodiac….and one of the edges on the cube….they represent also 12 gates
the letter heh represents aries in the zodiac…and in the cube above it represents north east….can you see it on the cube….it is one of the edges of the cube…….
vau represents taurus and south east
zain is gemini is the east above
cheth is cancer is east below
teth is leo is north above
yod is virgo is north below
lamed is libra is north west
nun is scorpio is south west
samekh is sagittarius is west above
ayin is capricorn is west below….just a wee sidenote…the hebrew letter ayin means “eye” and it corresponds with capricorn….capricorn is the goat…..capricorn is ruled by the planet saturn/satan……now do you see another connection with the eye of the devil/satan/the goat…or the “evil eye”…….it’s nature and the zodiac…and the hebrew letters…..incidentally…..the film “eye of the devil” was sharon tates first film…(sharon tate was murdered by charles mansons group of followers in the 60’s)………….the film was originally called 13 and at the end….(spoiler alert…he he) david niven has to pay for the poor wine harvest by giving his life up……he stands in the middle of 12 hooded men in a circle……now I wonder what that represents….it couldn’t be the zodiac…could it?
(david niven’s character is representing the sun….and the man shoots him with an arrow….the horseman being sagittarius…..the man with the bow and arrow rides a white horse….isn’t there a verse in revelation about a rider with a bow on a white horse?….the one who pierces the sun with the spear or arrow to send him off to death…..(jesus was pierced with a spear)….and then you see his son…..the new ruler to be!…………………………… just as the new sun is born on december 25th each year)
(I originally had the clip of the film here to watch…but the clip has been removed from youtube….sorry folks!)
however its an allegory of the zodiac and the year…..if you watch the film…you will see it in a whole different way if you remember these things
its the greatest story ever told and the never ending story…and you will see it throughout many films,operas,books
when you read the summary on the wiki page above….think of frodo in lord of the rings,neo in the matrix,harry potter
back to the cube
tzaddi is aquarius is south above
and finally the last edge of the cube
qoph is pisces is south below
tau holds the cube together…this is why saturn/satan..the letter tau rules the world…the 3 dimensional world
satan/saturn is the prince of darkness/winter…..he blinds and binds people
2 Corinthians 4:4New Living Translation (NLT)
4 Satan, who is the god of this world, has blinded the minds of those who don’t believe. They are unable to see the glorious light of the Good News. They don’t understand this message about the glory of Christ, who is the exact likeness of God.
and isn’t it interesting that in revelation 21 talking about the new jersusalem
2I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband.
hi look the bride is ready for her husband…there’s gonna be some hieros gamos shenanigans going on!
10And he carried me away in the Spirit to a mountain great and high, and showed me the Holy City, Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God. 11It shone with the glory of God, and its brilliance was like that of a very precious jewel, like a jasper, clear as crystal. 12It had a great, high wall with twelve gates, and with twelve angels at the gates. On the gates were written the names of the twelve tribes of Israel. 13There were three gates on the east, three on the north, three on the south and three on the west. 14The wall of the city had twelve foundations, and on them were the names of the twelve apostles of the Lamb.
notice it is shaped like a cube?
……….and it has 12 gates?
and the names of the 12 tribes of israel on them?
the 12 tribes of israel are the 12 signs of the zodiac….
the 12 edges of the cube pictured above are the twelve gates
every one of us on this earth are one of the 12 tribes of israel…..I’m of the tribe of aquarius myself
15The angel who talked with me had a measuring rod of gold to measure the city, its gates and its walls. 16The city was laid out like a square, as long as it was wide. He measured the city with the rod and found it to be 12,000 stadiac in length, and as wide and high as it is long. 17The angel measured the wall using human measurement, and it was 144 cubitsd thick.e18The wall was made of jasper, and the city of pure gold, as pure as glass. 19The foundations of the city walls were decorated with every kind of precious stone. The first foundation was jasper, the second sapphire, the third agate, the fourth emerald, 20the fifth onyx, the sixth ruby, the seventh chrysolite, the eighth beryl, the ninth topaz, the tenth turquoise, the eleventh jacinth, and the twelfth amethyst.f21The twelve gates were twelve pearls, each gate made of a single pearl. The great street of the city was of gold, as pure as transparent glass.
again…. the angel measured it and it is 1200 stadia in length…breadth and height...length breadth and height are the 3 dimensions……and also if you remember…aleph…mem…and shin…the 3 dimensional hebrew letters…new jerusalem is a cube!
can you see it’s all about the zodiac?….each one of those stones mentioned in the verses above equate with one of the zodiac signs
it also works with the musical scale………a piano has 88 keys…..yet it only ever has 12 notes to pick from…..hmmm…12 notes….number 12 again….and seven of those notes are the white keys…ADCDEFG…..seven notes?….could they equate with the 7 planets?
and also the 7 months of light in the earth?…aries,taurus,gemini,cancer,leo,virgo,libra……these are the 7 candles in the menorah…the 7 months of light….before the sting of the scorpion “bites” and kills the sun and light for 5 months
so the 5 black keys on the piano…they are the 5 zodiacal winter signs….scorpio,sagittarius,capricorn,aquarius and pisces….the winter months….before the lamb of god arrives to bring the light back to the northern hemisphere!
those 5 months of winter starting with scorpio are told of in revelation also
1The fifth angel sounded his trumpet, and I saw a star that had fallen from the sky to the earth. The star was given the key to the shaft of the Abyss. 2When he opened the Abyss, smoke rose from it like the smoke from a gigantic furnace. The sun and sky were darkened by the smoke from the Abyss. 3And out of the smoke locusts came down on the earth and were given power like that of scorpions of the earth. 4They were told not to harm the grass of the earth or any plant or tree, but only those people who did not have the seal of God on their foreheads. 5They were not allowed to kill them but only to torture them for five months. And the agony they suffered was like that of the sting of a scorpion when it strikes.
the abyss is winter…l’inverno…the inferno…..hell is cold…..yet it burns everything away in it’s cold fire
and you have scorpions and 5 months……..
and again…isn’t it interesting that revelation says that there will be a new song?
The Lamb and the 144,000
…2And I heard a voice from heaven, like the sound of many waters and like the sound of loud thunder, and the voice which I heard was like the sound of harpists playing on their harps. 3And they sang a new song before the throne and before the four living creatures and the elders; and no one could learn the song except the one hundred and forty-four thousand who had been purchased from the earth.4These are the ones who have not been defiled with women, for they have kept themselves chaste. These are the ones who follow the Lamb wherever He goes. These have been purchased from among men as first fruits to God and to the Lamb.…
also in revelation….has it ever struck you that it might be a bit about time?
24 elders being 24 hours of the day
and isn’t it strange that there are 1440 minutes in a day?….take it to the third level and you get 144000………now isn’t that strange….almost like the day…the year and the great year…the 3
if you’ve read and understood my previous blogs……the 4 living creatures and the lamb should strike a chord….and talking about chords
the occult teachings say that aleph…mem…and shin…the three mother letters in music correspond to the 1st 3rd and 5th notes of a scale or mode….which make the major triad
whether its really occult teachings or pareidolia……you decide!
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however…..there is a third side to every coin….the rim…and the rim bridges the two opposites
and you can see both side from the rim…whereas the two opposing sides cannot see each other
what I would say the occult teachings are….it’s a knowledge and a way of thinking that has been hidden from the average person for millennia…..that is….until the secret orders started to let the knowledge out and the internet making information available to all
it’s an amazing middle ground……..it solves contradictions….stops arguments in your thinking
for instance in the “eternal virgin” blog coming up soon…..it talks about mary being the eternal virgin…the mother of the world..religionists would believe and accept that..yet others would disagree…….such as evolutionists…however mary/mare also means water……and mankind evolved out of water…the sea….mare….mary…..so mankind all came out of the virgin mary (water)…the eternal virgin……….in allegory
in fact………every person born comes out of their mothers waters…..(mare)
coming down your mothers birth canal….her waters
this is why it says in the bible concerning jesus
He did not say anything to them without using a parable. But when he was alone with his own disciples, he explained everything.
do you get what was said there?………everything jesus said was a parable……..
and do you notice the letter tau on path 32?…the path that leads to the kingdom (malkuth)
didn’t jesus say to seek first the kingdom….weren’t people to pray for the kingdom to come?
and in ezekiel the man with the inkhorn (the planet mercury…the messenger of the gods) was to put a mark on the people who were sighing and groaning over the things happening in “jerusalem” in the last part of the days?
what letter?……..see on a bit further…however first…some more mercury symbolism
here is a representation of mercury in the thoth (thoth is mercury) tarot
notice a few things from the magus (singular of magi) tarot card……at the top there is a pen and scroll…..see…mercury is connected with writing/recording…..this is why he is the messenger with inkhorn by his side in ezekiel’s vision!
notice the wand in his right hand?…..this is the element fire
the sword on his left is the element air
the cup next to the sword represents the element water
and the disc with the 8 pointed star is the symbol of earth
wands….swords……cups…..and discs are the 4 suits of the tarot deck
they correspond to the normal deck of cards as
clubs are wands are fire……..or the hebrew letter yod
spades are swords are air…….or the hebrew letter vav
hearts are cups are water…..or the hebrew letter heh
diamonds are discs are earth….also the hebrew letter heh
why heh twice?………..the letter heh has two openings in it…..
one at the bottom and one at the left hand side
more on that in a future blog
however back to the magus tarot card above
the alchemical symbol of mercury is on the bottom left of the card..and the hebrew letter beth on the bottom right…they all connect or correspond
if you notice carefully…….mercury is tearing the fabric of the universe apart
and there is an animal at bottom right…..this is called the ape of thoth or hanuman
(mercury was called thoth in egypt)
the two serpents above his head represent the caduceus
and also the two stylized wings on his feet
in fact as a whole…mercury on the tarot card is imitating the alchemical symbol of mercury
his feet make the arrow head…and the serpents make the horns….can you see it?
there are so many other things to point out on the card…….even the colours are important
however back to ezekiels vision of the man with the inkhorn or writing kit by his side
2 And I saw six men coming from the direction of the upper gate, which faces north, each with a deadly weapon in his hand. With them was a man clothed in linen who had a writing kit at his side. They came in and stood beside the bronze altar.
3 Now the glory of the God of Israel went up from above the cherubim, where it had been, and moved to the threshold of the temple. Then the Lord called to the man clothed in linen who had the writing kit at his side4 and said to him, “Go throughout the city of Jerusalem and put a mark on the foreheads of those who grieve and lament over all the detestable things that are done in it.”
what was the mark he put on their head again?
it was a tau…
a tau..a tau is the 22nd and last letter of the hebrew alphabet..and the letter tau represents saturn astrologically…….and saturn is the guy/concept/principle who wraps things up at the end of a cycle
and notice the letter tau is the path that leads to the kingdom (malkuth) on the tree of kabbalah?
can you see how there is a correspondence between the seemingly different concepts like the bible/kabbalah/astrology/astrotheology?
33 “Again you have heard that it was said to those of old, ‘You shall not swear falsely, but shall perform to the Lord what you have sworn.’34 But I say to you, Do not take an oath at all, either by heaven, for it is the throne of God,35 or by the earth, for it is his footstool, or by Jerusalem, for it is the city of the great King.36 And do not take an oath by your head, for you cannot make one hair white or black.37 Let what you say be simply ‘Yes’ or ‘No’; anything more than this comes from evil.
notice it says “let what you say simply be yes”…..anything more than this comes from evil.
see the saturnian theme there……it’s telling us about the influence of saturn…….or the influence of part of the human psyche
all oaths compel us to obey them…..when I stood up as a jehovah’s witness and said I agreed with their tenets and got baptized….I made an oath or pact with them…..(d’oh!)
and when I found out about the hidden lies of the organisation……..I upped and left
….to them I broke my oath……my vow……
and now they do not speak to me……..even to say hello in the street or supermarket
however …if I merely went along to the hall and never took the pledge/oath/agreement….they would still be speaking to me
oaths change everything……..they are very important
with contracts/agreements….you better read the small print because if you don’t ….you’re in trouble……………. because the devil is in the details…(the small print)
and they are the small print in the contract……little hidden extras
so hopefully now…you get the idea of law being immovable/dark/foreboding place where accounts are balanced………outstanding debts get settled
this corresponds to saturn and lead…scales and justice……saturn is very serious…he doesn’t play around
saturn rules libra….satan and the law
lawyers and judges wear black…..and again…funnily enough….black is the colour of saturn
and you’ve heard the saying….”the law is an ass”……an ass is stubborn…immovable
like lead……dull heavy………
see the correspondences?….see the allegories?…….the planets and zodiac are telling us about ourselves!
this is how you should think of satan/saturn……..holding you back…restricting/binding you/controlling you
here’s a bible section that tells us about satan/saturn and control
1st chronicles 21:1-3
David Forces a Census 1Then Satan stood up against Israel and moved David to number Israel. 2So David said to Joab and to the princes of the people, “Go, number Israel from Beersheba even to Dan, and bring me word that I may know their number.”3Joab said, “May the LORD add to His people a hundred times as many as they are! But, my lord the king, are they not all my lord’s servants? Why does my lord seek this thing? Why should he be a cause of guilt to Israel?”
notice it says satan stood up against israel?…(satan=opposer)…..yet there was no real entity called the devil there…….david himself was trying to force a census….why?…to number the israelites…to control them/bind them/restrict them
the satan that stood up against israel was only the thoughts of david himself
he had allowed destructive thoughts (the vampire) to enter over his minds threshold
again when I was a jehovah’s witness you had to hand in the number of hours you had preached every month….this was a control method I couldn’t see at the time
if your hours went down….an elder would come to “encourage” you to do more
also saturn is associated with restrictions and weighty limitations
and if you go against him….you better be on your mettle…and read the small print…otherwise you are toast
however……ironically …….the restrictive saturn/satan wants you to do well
(the words satan and devil mean……….. slanderer…opposer…resister)
because all of this restriction and opposition can be good for you….all of this testing
…………………….no pain….no gain
opposition/saturn/satan…….causes us to progress…to evolve……..think of a weightlifter
the opposition of the weights improve his muscles………..make him stronger
without the opposition of saturn we wouldn’t have the contrast of the better way
saturn actually wants us to break free of his restrictions…………to be the hero…..to break the bonds
to turn the restriction (lead) into gold
and you might have noticed on the list above…… gold is the metal of the sun
here’s another example of “satan” at work in the bible
the lead holding back the gold
saturn/satan holding back the sun/son of god
….and the attitude we should adopt when faced with trials/resistance
remember peter said this to jesus?
Jesus Predicts His Death and Resurrection 21From that time Jesus began to show His disciples that He must go to Jerusalem, and suffer many things from the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and be raised up on the third day. 22Peter took Him aside and began to rebuke Him, saying, “God forbid it, Lord! This shall never happen to You.”23But He turned and said to Peter, “Get behind Me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to Me; for you are not setting your mind on God’s interests, but man’s.”
jesus was on his life’s mission and peter was trying to oppose him…….restrict him……..BIND HIM…stumble him…yet….jesus was having none of it and rebuked peter
this is all allegory of us letting others hold us back
it could be a child at school who has a talent in something……and yet..not wanting to stand out from their classmates for fear of ridicule
to someone who has made an oath to another and therefore becoming a slave to the other’s will
and again there is another correspondence….satan and slavery
satan gets us to become his “slave” by oath taking….by contracting…..by signing for a loan
getting you in debt
and this can cause us to become heavy in our spirit and lose our lustre
JUST LIKE LEAD
we can become black hearted…again black is the colour of saturn
however we can turn that lead into gold
how?….by going on the hero’s journey…..breaking free from all the restrictions imposed on us
humans like to tie other humans in knots…restrict and bind them to their will
so we need to get the courage to break free from those restrictions
here are some examples of people who did just that
george washington let no restrictions stop his lifes path
he literally said…..”get behind me satan” just like jesus
this is why we have the “apotheosis of george washington” on the capitol building’s rotunda
and wouldn’t you know…….apotheosis means “the elevation of someone to divine status.”
see the sun just behind george washington?…the gold?
here is a wee hint for a future blog……..why are there 72 stars round about the picture of george?
(sshhh….don’t tell anyone…..it’s astrology)
the bible is full of such stories of turning lead into gold by breaking free of the control of others
it’s the “set my people free” call of moses…….to oppose the big boss…the pharaoh/satan/saturn
its king david facing goliath with a slingshot and five stones in the valley of elah
its the apostles spreading their message of freedom under threat of death from rome
they are all allegories of the human condition of both bondage and freedom
as we enter the new age of aquarius the old age of pisces will try to hold us back
the old ways and institutions and ideas will strongly resist the new
the bible says the birth of the new age will be turbulent
1 Thessalonians 5
Now, brothers and sisters, about times and dates we do not need to write to you,2 for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night.3 While people are saying, “Peace and safety,” destruction will come on them suddenly, as labor pains on a pregnant woman, and they will not escape.
notice the labour pains of a pregnant woman……..its a birth of something
it’s the birth of another stage of an evolving mankind
it’s not telling us that jesus is coming from the sky to save us….it’s allegory….it’s through mankind itself wrestling/coming to terms with a whole new way of thinking and doing things
and because people are resistant to change……..it will cause conflict…….starting to notice it all around us…….freedom movements….sovereign movements…tea party movements….occupy wall street movements
it’s turbulent times folks as we grow up as a species into a new stage of man
the age of aquarius
and the turning lead into gold theme comes through the bible …yet again
— 1 CORINTHIANS 3:11-15
“For other foundation can no man lay than that is laid, which is JESUS CHRIST. Now if any man build upon this foundation gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, stubble; Every man’s work shall be made manifest: for the day shall declare it, because it shall be revealed by fire; and the fire shall try every man’s work of what sort it is. If any man’s work abide which he hath built thereupon, he shall receive a reward. If any man’s work shall be burned, he shall suffer loss: but he himself shall be saved; yet so as by fire.”
notice as we get tested …….we really find out who we are
and we are in testing times!
as the bible says…..some will be found as stubble…………and some as gold
Hopefully this blog will show the relationship between them all….
Because they are all related!
The Sepher Yetzirah states this :-
“Twenty-two are the Letters, the Foundation of all things; there are Three Mothers, Seven Double and Twelve Simple letters.”
Chapter 1 vs 2.
Did you notice how the 22 break down into…3…..7 and 12?
The numbers 3..7 and 12 are everywhere in the bible pages!
In fact these numbers are impressed in the cosmos,through the divine trinity…the number 3.
Also the 7 classical planets,and the 12 signs of the zodiac.
Here’s something to consider before we get going though.Isn’t pi…22 over 7?
(Those numbers again).
Also this blog will attempt to show the comparisons between the Tarot,the Torah.(the Hebrew scriptures written with 22 letters). And the rota (zodiac).
Have another look at the “Wheel of fortune” tarot card above (from the Rider Waite deck).
First off,do you notice the 8 spokes in the wheel?
Here’s another picture illustrating the same symbol.
There is also the Union Jack!
The “Union Jack” is actually the union between the fixed and cardinal points of the zodiac!
These are the 4 “cardinal” points in the suns journey through the year.
And Mabon…Autumn Equinox.
Those were the four cardinal points!
However,there are also the four “Cross Quarter Days.” Or four “fixed” points.
Imbolc -2nd February,also known as “Candlemas” or “Groundhog Day.”
It’s also known as “The presentation of Jesus at the temple” 40 days after his birth at the Winter Solstice.
Then we have Beltane-May 1st,which is also known as “Mayday” or “Walpurgisnacht.”
Then next on the wheel,we have “Lughnasadh,”on August 1st,known as “Loaf Mass Day.”
And probably the most well known of them all,represented by the pumpkin below.
“Samhain”….also known as “Halloween” on October 31st.
These are the representative days for the 4 fixed signs of the zodiac,they also stand for YHVH…..The lion,bull,eagle….and man.
The lion is “Lughnasadh”….in the sign of Leo.
The bull is “Beltane”……in the sign of Taurus.
The eagle is “Samhain”…in the sign of Scorpio.
The man is “Imbolc”…in the sign of Aquarius.
Once you get the gist of what I’m sharing.”YOU” will start to see the patterns for yourself!
Also did you notice,again,the 4 living creatures seen by Ezekiel and John of the book of revelation,and seen on the tarot card above.
Can you see the bull,lion,man and eagle on the 4 corners of the card?
These represent respectively the 4 elements.(Earth,Fire,Air and Water).
Those who may be familiar with Hebrew,will notice the Tetragrammaton on the wheel.Yod,Heh,Vav,Heh.(Yahweh,or Jehovah)
The 4 living creatures and the four letters,are representing the same concepts.
YHVH is a formula for the 4 elements,which can also be represented by the 4 living creatures….remember the “Lamassu” from the second blog entry?
The letter “Yod” represents Fire.
The first “Heh” represents Water.
“Vav” represents Air.
The final “Heh” represents Earth.
Do you notice the words Taro,Rota and Tora on the wheel in the tarot card?
Taro is the Tarot.
Tora is the Torah
And Rota is the circle of the zodiac.But why are they all mentioned together?
It’s because they are all connected!
As these blogs continue,you should start to see a pattern emerging.What pattern?
You should be starting to see some correspondences between the bible/tarot/alchemy and the zodiac…In fact they are all related,all talking about the same concepts,from differing angles.
For example,the more observant among you will have noticed that in my blog “the hidden knowledge” I made this statement concerning the 5th element.
“Here’s a hint,its the Hebrew letter “Shin” that inserts itself into the tetragrammaton”
The Hebrew letter “Shin” is the 21st letter of the Hebrew alphabet.
Then in my blog “Saturn- Lord of the Rings” I posted a photo of a Jewish man with a “tefillin” on his head with a Hebrew letter displayed on it……what letter would that be?
Again it’s the letter “Shin”….why?
The “tetragrammaton” or “4 letters,”are the 4 elements….as stated before.
Fire,water,air and earth….or respectively Yod,Heh,Vav,Heh.
However kabbalah tells us that shin is the holy spirit…….the 5th element.
and when you insert the letter shin into the tetragrammaton…you get the “pentagrammaton.”
It turns the name “Jehovah” into “Joshua” or “Jesus.”
However it means so much more.
It is the reason why Leonardo da Vinci painted the “Vitruvian man.” Turning the 4 into 5.
The tetragrammaton into the pentagrammaton.
Here’s one of the occult/hidden secrets ….”It’s all about sex!”
“Shin” on one level is sperm/semen.This is the “holy spirit” from the father/pater/pattern that animates matter,it fertilizes the egg of the mother/mater/matter or the brings to life the 4 elements with the 5th element,spirit…this is the holy spirit that impregnates Mary in the bible.
The “holy spirit” is sperm and “Mary” represents “matter.”
However if the letter shin represents sperm,why is the letter shin on the above pictured man’s head?
Because it also represents the holy spirit that enlightens us and gives us a rebirth in our thinking……sperm brings about births,as do our higher thoughts bring about births and ideas.
Ponder also on this.It is the same reason why ancient Jewish kings in the bible were anointed with “oil” on their head.And not only in the Jewish culture,but in many cultures worldwide.
In fact the word “anoint” means to “smear with oil.” What “oil?”
The Israelites were “dead” in Egypt.They were slaves to anothers will (Pharaoh).
However,Moses (Mercury) was about to bring them out of that death/slavery/captivity.
He was going to bring them back to life….to free them!
Can you grasp the sexual symbolism as Moses places his “Staff” on the “Red Sea” and it parts,to let all the thousands of sperm/oops I mean Israelites cross over toward the promised land….but as you know,all of the sperm die off as they make the journey to the ovum.
Joshua/the old testament name for Jesus brings about the new life in the promised land.
You may notice that is the same function performed by the sun.
Freeing the earth from darkness every day/year.
The darkness can be personified as Pharaoh,Herod and Satan and a thousand other names.
Sperm is the life giver,fertilizing the mater/mother/matter in the darkness of the womb.
Back now to “Torah Tarot Rota”
The 22 Hebrew letters with which the Torah was formed.
The 22 tarot cards of the major arcana.
The 22 paths of the tree of life in Kabbalah.
Are all the same thing!
The Sepher Yetzirah tells us the 22 letters of the torah are broken down into the following.
3 “mother letters” which correspond to the three elements….where is earth?….(leave that to another blog)
The three mother letters are
7 double letters which correspond to the 7 planets
And 12 simple letters that correspond to the zodiac signs.
We have the 3 mother letters,7 double letters and 12 simple letters.
The 3 mother letters correspond to the trinity that theologians speak of.
Here’s another correspondence between Christianity and Hinduism.
The 3 are also Brahma,Vishnu and Shiva.
Brahma is the creator,Vishnu is the preserver and Shiva is the destroyer.
The three types of zodiac signs correspond also,a cardinal sign is the creator of the season.A cardinal sign is the Brahma and Aleph.
A fixed sign is the preserver of the season.The fixed signs link to Vishnu and Mem.(Vishnu the preserver is also Noah of the bible,who was the preserver.”Mem” means water,Noah saved/guided(psychopomp) the animals through the water.
A mutable sign is the destroyer of the season,corresponding to Shiva/Shin.
Shin is fire,Shin means tooth,although the letter looks like three teeth/or a trident. (trident means 3 teeth).
These are the seven planets,for instance,take the first one…lust and chastity.
We know Venus is the Goddess of love and Beauty,but the word “venereal” comes from Venus.
These seven forces can be used for good and bad purposes.
In chemistry these seven planets can form the alkalis and acids.
The 7 planets are also called the Elohim.
The 12 simple letters are the 12 signs of the zodiac/12 tribes of Israel/12 disciples of Jesus/12 stones in the circle at Gilgal/12 knights of the round table.
They are all connected/the tarot/bible/planets/zodiac/kabbalah/myths/religions.
As spoken of earlier,you can see them in other religions
lets connect again the number 3
In Hinduism we have Brahma/Hebrew letter “Aleph”/In the Zodiac we have Cardinal.
Brahma represents the cardinal signs,and just like cardinal signs open up the season Brahma opens up the life cycle/Aleph opens up the Hebrew alphabet.
In Hinduism we have Vishnu/Hebrew letter “Mem”/Zodiac fixed signs.
Vishnu the preserver corresponds to the fixed signs/the 4 letters YHVH…they are established/preserved/fixed/Mem is fixed in the middle of the Hebrew alphabet.
In Hinduism we have Shiva/the destroyer/Hebrew letter Shin(21st letter in the Hebrew alphabet 3×7 triple octave)before the letter Tau which ends the alphabet.The letter Tau is the mark to be placed on the foreheads of all those sighing and moaning at the end of the age.
Notice the appearance of Mercury again in the verse below….Mercury is the man with the “writing case”/the psychopomp.
Then the LORD called to the man clothed in linen who had the writing kit at his side “Go throughout the city of Jerusalem and put a mark on the foreheads of those who grieve and lament over all the detestable things that are done in it.”As I listened, he said to the others, “Follow him through the city and kill, without showing pity or compassion.Slaughter the old men, the young men and women, the mothers and children, but do not touch anyone who has the mark. Begin at my sanctuary.” So they began with the old men who were in front of the temple.
As said previously,there are 22 cards in the major arcana of the tarot,however in the full tarot deck there are 78 cards…why 78?…..again it is linked to the 12 signs of the zodiac.
If you add 1+2+3+4+5+6+7+8+9+10+11+12 (the twelve signs) you get 78,the number of the tarot cards.
The zodiac/bible/tarot/Hebrew alphabet all link…because they are all talking about the same thing!
Tarot/rota/Torah……..however there is one other word on the card….”Ator”….we will be meeting Ator/Hathor/the mistress of the west in other blogs!
Just as Mercury guides people to the afterlife….Hathor welcomes them in.
This time though,I would like to focus on the “wheels within wheels.”
Here are some examples of wheels,or cycles.
The three “wheels” or “cycles” are 1/the day,2/the year and 3/the great year.
The day has 24 hours.
The year contains 12 months.
And the great year lasts almost 26,000 years.
If we look at the first cycle,the 24 hour day as a zodiac wheel ….then dawn would be likened to the sign of Aries in the daily cycle.
Why?,well because the dawn or sunrise of the year starts in Aries.Its called the vernal or spring equinox,and it happens every year in the sign of Aries around March 21st.
Each day is like a miniature year.
In the day for example,take dawn as starting at 6am,in the 24 hour day,each 2 hours would equal one sign of the zodiac.
6-8am would be Aries,8-10am Taurus,10-12 Gemini…this is the spring of the day. (Morning is the equivalent of Spring in the day)
12-2pm Cancer,2-4pm Leo,4-6pm Virgo.(Afternoon is the Summer of the day)
6-8pm Libra,8-10pm Scorpio,10-12pm Sagittarius (Evening is the Autumn of the day)
12-2am Capricorn,2-4am Aquarius,4-6am Pisces are the (Winter “dark times” of the daily cycle)
They are like a miniature 4 seasons in one day.
6am (dawn) would be equivalent to the spring equinox of the day,when light overtakes the darkness and brings life back to the earth.
12 midday would be the summer solstice of the day,the highest point the sun reaches in the sky.
6 pm would be the autumnal equinox,when darkness again returns and “overthrows” the light.
12 midnight would be the winter solstice of the day,the darkest hour of both the day and year.
And this is the wheel or cycle of the day.
Each two hours or “zodiac sign” of the day has a different “feel” to it.
For instance,10-12 in the morning (Gemini) has a different atmosphere or “feel” to it than 2-4 (Leo) in the afternoon.
And so in every year,each sign of the zodiac has an atmosphere of its own,with unique attributes.The sign of Gemini (May/June) is late spring,Leo (July/August) is mid-summer,and again they each have a different ambience to them,caused by the angles of the sun.
The 12 month yearly cycle breaks down into the 4 seasons.
Aries/Taurus/Gemini are the signs of the spring months.
Cancer/Leo/Virgo are the signs of the summer months.
Libra/Scorpio/Sagittarius are the zodiac signs of the autumn months.
And finally,Capricorn/Aquarius/Pisces are the signs of the winter months.
The twelve signs of the zodiac are:-
Aries the lamb,Taurus the bull,Gemini the twins,Cancer the crab,Leo the Lion,Virgo the virgin,Libra the scales,Scorpio the scorpion,Sagittarius the centaur,Capricorn the goat,Aquarius the water carrier,and Pisces the two fish.
Let’s focus on one of the signs and see its relationship to the scriptures.
For this example we will pick the the sign of Cancer,the highest point the sun will climb to in the northern hemisphere,hence the “Tropic of cancer.”
Cancer the crab…also it was symbolized by the unicorn and also the dung beetle/scarab in Egypt.
Venus rules the sign of Taurus,and some of the attributes of Venus are love,beauty.But also desire,sex and orgies..Hence the word “venereal” in venereal disease comes from Venus.Another name for Venus is”Aphrodite,”and it is from Aphrodite that we get “Aphrodisiac,”again connected with desire and sex.
And you also get song lyrics like this.
“Goddess on the mountain top
Burning like a silver flame(of course she will have a silver flame,silver is a feminine colour)
The summit of beauty and love
And Venus was her name
She’s got it
Yeah, baby, she’s got it
I’m your Venus, I’m your fire
But those golden calf worshippers of the age of Taurus haven’t discerned that the precessional clock has moved from Taurus to Aries.(They are still clinging to the old ways).
When Moses comes down from the mountain,he has the “culprits” all killed.
Because the sign of Taurus is over.
Please note well the above scenario,because at the start of every age,there is a culling off of all those who cling to the old ways and old Gods (ways of thinking)….still clinging to the old patterns of life.
Moses is leading the people from the old age of Taurus into the new sign of Aries.(The lamb/sheep/ram)All new symbols and images.
Could this be why Moses is pictured with horns on his head….lambs horns?
Here are some other indications that they were heading into the sign of Aries.
Every zodiac sign has a motto.
The motto for Aries is “I AM.”
When Moses asks God who shall he say sent him?….what does god answer?
It is important to know what planet rules what sign,because it will answer why God seems to change all the time.
From a warring tyrant in the Old testament to the caring,beneficent,loving father of the New Testament.
More on that in a bit,but for now,back to the Aries symbolism.
The Jews were known in the old testament to be shepherds…or linked with ram/lamb/sheep symbolism (think King David who was a shepherd),they also blew the rams horns when they brought down the walls of Jericho.All of this is Aries symbolism.
Another interesting thing of note about Aries is that it is also a fire sign.
In fact Christians to this day have fish symbols on the back of their cars.
“I believe” is the motto of Pisces…and Jesus ministry was all about finding “believers.” The people all believed in Jesus.
Doubting Thomas after touching the wound of Jesus “believed,” did he not?
Jesus says in the scriptures,”whoever believes in me will get eternal life.”
It’s all about belief (I believe),which is the motto of Pisces.
As touched on above,Jupiter (the ruler of Pisces) is the benevolent planet,unlike mars the war planet (mars rules Aries).
This is now why.God is benevolent,Jesus preaches a loving god/caring god,in opposition to the warlike God of the Old testament.
Again,all because in the great year,the clock has moved from the age of Aries,(ruled by mars)to the new age of Pisces ruled by Jupiter.All due to axial precession,and how each age has a different effect on the planet and our psyches/consciousness.
Jupiter of the Romans is also called Zeus in Greek.
This is why the new religion of Christianity is built on Peter… The Jew-Peter (Jupiter)
Jezeus and Jewpeter,just a coincidence?wordplay?
In bodily astrology the sign of Pisces rules the feet.(see the fish at the feet?)
Now wasn’t Jesus connected with feet?He was walking everywhere.
Didn’t Jesus get his feet washed by the sinful woman,and didn’t he also wash his disciples feet?
Didn’t he also get a nail in the feet?
The article of clothing still associated today with Jesus would be “Jesus sandals.”
And we still have this this famous picture today associated with Jesus.
Aren’t Christians “footstep followers” of Jesus?
Some contend the statue of peter at the Vatican may be an old statue of Zeus/Jupiter.
Even if it isn’t.,the statues feet are almost worn away from all the rubbing and kissing.
So Pisces is connected with fish,feet,Jupiter,benevolence,and the motto “I believe.”
But one time the age of Pisces will be at it’s end,and then will have to make way for the next “new age” and that new age is the age of Aquarius.
And what do we have swirling in the ether?Songs such as this one below.
And,according to some,we are now at the cusp of the next “new age.”
Jesus the old Piscean guide said he would be with us all the days until the end of the “age” did he not?He promised he would be with us till the end of the age of Pisces.
We have a “new age” movement today do we not?,we have great unrest everywhere.The birth of the new age is upon us,and like any birth,it will get bloody and stressful until the new child/new age arrives.
The new age of Aquarius is the “son of man” who will arrive,Aquarius is the only man of the zodiac (all the rest are animals,twin boys,centaurs etc)Aquarius is the man with the water pitcher.
And right on cue,Jesus tells us this in luke 22:10
“As you enter the city, a man carrying a jar of water will meet you. Follow him to the house that he enters”
Notice the man with the pitcher of water? (Aquarius symbolism)
Notice we also have to follow him into the “house” (houses are connected with astrology and the zodiac)This would be the Aquarian “house” of the zodiac.
A whole new way of thinking/rules/teachings/ways will enter into our psyches/mass consciousness….it’s a renaissance of sorts.
The old institutions are now starting to go stale,can you see it?….feel it?
This is why the bible says there has to be a great apostasy (falling away),before the next system/age arrives.People can see through the lies of their religions and are turning away.This new age of information is crumbling all the old paradigms/models/patterns of living all around us.
The old ways will be eradicated,the old wineskins/institutions cannot contain the new wine.
“And no one pours new wine into old wineskins. Otherwise, the wine will burst the skins, and both the wine and the wineskins will be ruined. No, they pour new wine into new wineskins.”
It’s an out with the old and in with the new!
Yet people will try to cling to the old ways,even to the death,just as they did in the story of the golden calf in Moses day.
In Jesus time,there was a great culling also,Jerusalem was surrounded by the Romans and those who didn’t heed the warning of Jesus perished.What warning?
“And when you see Jerusalem surrounded by armies, then you will know that the time of its destruction has arrived.Then let those who are in Judea flee to the mountains, let those in the city get out, and let those in the country not enter the city.”
And the historian Josephus said over 1 million people died.
So there was a culling when the age of Taurus gave way to the age of Aries,and a culling when the age of Aries gave way to the age of Pisces.
And moving into the next age will be no different.
Have a wee look at the motto for Aquarius above,the motto for the age that is coming.
Ponder on that motto and you will comprehend why the bible says there will be a great apostasy from religion,which is all but belief and superstition.
The book of revelation also shows Aquarian symbols throughout for those who can see it.
Aquarius is ruled by Saturn (and Uranus,more in a later blog)
Such as this.
“Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb”water being poured is an Aquarian motif.
And also this.
“Then another angel came out of the temple and called in a loud voice to him who was sitting on the cloud, “Take your sickle and reap, because the time to reap has come, for the harvest of the earth is ripe.”
Saturn who rules Aquarius is the God who is associated with the sickle and scythe,with which he reaps the harvest of the earth.
In the above verses…can you see Aquarius and also Saturn featured?Can you see the grim reaper there?(old father time) Saturn is connected with the harvest.
In the book of revelation 14:3,the “new song” is the whole new way of living/thinking/doing.
Its a renaissance,a new tuning.
Jesus and Moses were not real historical people,they were representations/composites of those who were awake and conscious of what was happening around them.They were the light,the consciousness,they were those who came back to life,those who rose from the dead…they were the dry bones come to life!
Its an awakening…a new realization…a paradigm shift.
I remember finding out the truth about Jehovah’s Witnesses.
Allowing myself to question dearly held beliefs,that we were told never to question.
It was a massive awakening for me,very frightening also,it was as if I awoke from a hypnotic spell.The scales fell from my eyes.And I could see through all of the deceptions and lies.
I never felt so alone as I had next to no one to talk to about it though,and yet I felt empowered by knowing the truth about “the truth,”as Jehovah’s witnesses like to call themselves.
Every ex-Jehovah’s Witness talks about having an awakening/a dawning that it wasn’t the truth…and for every one it is an incredible journey.
its an a-haaa!I get it! moment.”I see the real truth behind the veil” type of understanding.
Seeing the man behind the curtain in the Wizard of Oz.
Jesus said he would bring division did he not?
“Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword.For I have come to turn “‘a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law–a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household.’
Jehovah’s witnesses can no longer talk to anyone who speaks out against the organization,they must be totally shunned.
Jesus is a metaphor for the truth and light (darkness is ignorance/lying) and when people accept “real” truth they accept Jesus/the light/truth/conscious awakening,that is why Jesus is the a-ha moment.
The dawning of the age of Aquarius will be like that for mankind.
At the end of every age,people also escape from bondage/slavery.
In Moses time they escaped from Pharaoh and Egypt…and bondage to the Egyptians.
God told Pharaoh to “Let my people go.”
In Jesus time they escaped from the false teachings of the lawmakers/pharisees/scribes leaders of that time also.
Jesus said,”you will know the truth and the truth will set you free”
There will be an escape to freedom in this age also,however….
“To escape from your prison,you first have to see you are in one”
Finally……..here is a quote from the book “whee! we,wee all the way home”
And again,if you got through all that…thanks for reading!
And isn’t it coincidental that the 4 states of matter correspond with the 4 elements.
Solid is the element of “earth.”
liquid corresponds to the element of “water.”
Gas corresponds of course to the element of “air.”
And plasma corresponds to the element of “fire.”
This was a form of ancient science!
The ancients recognized (in all cultures) this fourness,whether it was the four directions (north,south,east and west) and four seasons,four corners of the earth (more about that in a later blog). But they all had their symbols of the four.
Another example…the “lotus flower” is an eastern symbol of the four elements also.
Why a lotus flower?
Well…..a lotus flower has its roots in the EARTH.
it grows through WATER.
out into the AIR.
and looks toward the sun……FIRE. (Giving us the four elements again)
So in yet another culture,the symbol the lotus flower is a symbol of the four elements.
Here’s something to ponder on though,the human spine is referred to as a lotus flower in occult literature
(Here’s a clue….a lotus flower starts in the earth!)
If you google for yourself the connection between esoteric information and this knowledge of the 4 elements,your search should supply you with enough information that this is well known to esoteric societies.
I would like to stress that I want you to look for yourself and verify that these are hidden teachings now coming to the light,with information now at our fingertips.
We can find out and link things in seconds which would have taken years in times past.
In previous times,if you could even read a book,finding another on a similar subject,would have been a difficult task.
Joining the dots would have been almost impossible.And to see the patterns in other cultures signifying the same concepts in their own particular manner,would be out of the reach of most.
However,we are now in the information age,that can help us grasp the patterns.And once you recognize the patterns,you will start noticing these things everywhere.
There is also a “fourness” in things in nature,such as the four seasons,as mentioned before.
But let’s look a little closer at the four seasons.
Two of the seasons are male or projecting out.
These would be spring/summer,where growth happens on the earth.There is an abundance of light and warmth.The light rules the world during these two seasons.
And two female seasons are a “drawing in.” The Autumn and Winter are dark and cold.There is no growth,In fact things start falling apart,i.e the leaves fall from the trees.Darkness now has the upper hand,and rules over the light.
It’s like a breathing out in spring and summer.
Then a breathing in,in autumn/winter.
(And think now why people think the female brought the male to ruin in the Adam and Eve story and all should start to link).
So out of the four elements,two are male,and two are female!
Air and fire are male,and earth and water female.
What about chemistry? Well again it has the “fourness,” this time called “CHON”
Magnets have a male and female side…the two poles or polarities.
In your electric plug there is a male and female wire…positive/negative.
In atoms,the proton is male and electron female.
In the interaction between positive and negative we see how nature gets things done.
(this is the real meaning of the Song of Solomon.It’s describing the male and female forces of nature,the active and passive,the positive and negative forces).
Light (positive) and darkness (negative) and the interplay between them in nature.
In freemasonry,it’s the symbol of the compass and square.
The compass represents the male and the square represents the female.
And when the two come together…things happen!
Generation happens,the sexual orgasm brings life to the barren “earth” of the female,the egg is fertilized and a new generation comes about through this most holy act….hence the letter “G” in the middle of the male and female.
Do you notice that the compass is like the active male on top and the square like the receptive/passive female in sexual union?
The positive and the negative,the day and the night,the light and the dark come together and sparks fly.
It’s nature and how it works.The ancients weren’t stupid,they understood these forces,and symbolized and pictured them in their own way,according to their own particular culture that is part of the 360 degree spectrum that exists throughout all the earth.
Secret societies have kept this knowledge hidden from the masses (or as they call them ……the profane.)
Not out of malice,because with knowledge comes responsibility.
The profane are those not in the know,they are outside the temple of knowledge.
Harry Potter calls such ones “muggles” but it is the same thing.
“Jews” are those in the know and “Gentiles” are those outside the temple in the courtyard…hence the “court of the gentiles.
The bible and the zodiac?You may be asking yourself,isn’t that an oxymoron,doesn’t the bible condemn astrology?
If you asked me that 10 years ago I would have agreed.
However I am going to make a claim that will disturb and upset people,and if that happens to be the case, I understand,I really do,I know it did disturb me at first.
It is difficult to look hard and truthfully at dearly cherished and long held beliefs,and to even consider them as being wrong,it is as hard as staring at the midday sun,and mostly everyone will turn away from doing so!
So please know I mean no harm.
My claim concerns the zodiac,astrology and the bible.
Astrology and the zodiac is all throughout the bible,hidden in plain view for those who have eyes to see it,and are willing to dig just under the surface of the bible verses.
And it means much more than horoscopes,reading your stars in the newspaper,fortune telling and weird animals in a circle.
It isn’t woo or gobbledygook,it is a form of “ancient science,”and it’s amazing once you “get” it…..as I hope to show.
First though,how did I get to this point,how did I get here,and what brought me to this thinking?
Well since I was little,I’ve been asking,”what is life all about?”
My mum said I was always interested in wanting to know who God was even when I was little,I always remember her telling me one of the first questions I ever asked was “Who is God?”
I also wanted to know what the bible was saying from a young age,I could not understand a word of it,yet it seemed somehow important to people.
I always thought it was telling us something,but for the life of me,I couldn’t grasp what.
However,the need to know what it was saying,seemed at times insatiable.
This led me to religion,I tried churches here,there and everywhere….but they didn’t seem to feed my “hunger.”
I was always as empty leaving them as I arrived,yet everyone else around me seemed happy enough,satisfied with what they were taught,so therefore I used to think the fault lay with me.
Then I became a Jehovah’s witness through a circle of friends,one of my friends had a sister who was in the navy,and he told me she was going to leave the Royal Navy to become a Jehovah’s Witness.
Well I knew nothing about Jehovah’s Witnesses and asked him why it would make her leave what I thought was a good career,it sounded a strange decision to make.
He said she had found “the truth” about the bible and she could no longer remain in her career.
Then I had another friend who after talking one time about “spiritual things” with the same group of people (none of whom actually were Jehovah’s witnesses) he gave me a book to read saying it was very interesting.
The book was “You can live forever in a paradise on earth” written by the watchtower society.
When I started reading it,it seemed to use bible verses all the time to explain it’s stance on things,and I thought it had answers for every question raised.
For compared to my little understanding I had at that time on my life’s journey,and the understanding of every churchgoer I had met previously,JW’s seemed to know a lot.
They seemed to know their bible well,and when asked any question,could quote scriptures fluently to answer them,and boy could they flick through the bible,knowing every book it seemed and pinpoint the answer in seconds.
I thought I’d found where God was! (uh oh)
I met my wife there,and I was a Jehovah’s witness for over two decades,thinking I had the truth.
However (I bet you knew there would be a however…he he),the gnawing returned and eventually my questioning led me out of there too.
I started to realize the witnesses knowledge of the bible was by rote,and they never strayed much off their well trodden path.
And when I really started to question “our” dearly held beliefs…the answers were not forthcoming…however hostility was.
I remember the occasion of the last circuit assembly ( a circuit assembly is a gathering of a couple thousand JW’s),I asked a brother I knew,a simple question I had at the back of my mind,concerning Job 40:17.
(You’ll probably laugh at the absurdity of the conversation but it’s where JW’s are in their thinking)
Jehovah’s witnesses say that the “behemoth” talked about in Job was a hippopotamus according to the “society.” (the top brass).
The verse says…..
“Its tail sways like a cedar; the sinews of its thighs are close-knit.”
I said to the brother that I didn’t think the tail of a hippo resembled a cedar as it was just a little short thing.
His answer shocked me,he said to me “Watch what you’re doing,beware of looking too close into things…as the brothers who write the books know much more than you,and to start researching yourself can get you into spiritual trouble”
I thought,”WOW!” we are really restricted.in that we cannot even talk about the bible verses openly and “stray off the path” of what we’re told…not even one iota or people get nervous around you.”
(petty stuff eh?)
And adding on to that experience,I saw a “sister” (JW’s call each other “brother” and “sister”) crying outside the main auditorium and was being calmed and comforted from one of the assistants.Her response again stopped me in my tracks…she actually said “I should try crying like this more often,I got more attention and help here,than I’ve ever had at my own hall.”
I could see the poor woman was depressed,obviously felt unloved and unnoticed,and all this in “Jehovah’s loving organization.”
After that I went back into the main auditorium and saw the “man from Bethel” (Bethel is the main headquarters) giving his talk,walking up and down…people were hanging on to his every word,nodding and applauding,all the while I could see some of the things he was saying weren’t right.
The scales were falling from my eyes!…..big time!
Then my questioning continued,I remember saying to my wife one time,”I think there is something wrong with the Governing Body as they have had an affiliation with the United Nations for 10 years” (Jehovah’s witnesses teach that the UN is the seven headed wild beast of the book of revelations).
And the watchtower’s response was that they only did it to gain a “library card”
However the UN have stated that you do NOT have to be an NGO (non-governmental organization) to use the library…..so someone was lying…….guess who?…he he
So I said to my wife,I think there is wrongdoing going on with the Governing body,but not to worry…”Jehovah is still in charge”,at that she burst out crying saying I was trying to destroy her faith!
It stunned me!…it really did!I thought she would at least look at what I was talking about.
She didn’t…I could sense the fear from her!
Things from then on took a life of its own,there was no going back for me…I wanted to follow what was true,not lies perceived as truth.
I started “allowing” myself to research further and the house of cards collapsed completely.
I started to try to help others see the sham of the watchtower and all of the lies they were telling……oops! big mistake…no one wanted to hear it (that shocked me again).
In fact it turns out….everything was my fault!…I was the baddie for questioning.
I even received a visit from two of the elders on a shepherding call
They did not appreciate my sincere questions,or give me any answers that satisfied,and when I showed the convincing evidence of their false teachings,it was water off a duck’s back.
I (to my amazement) even received bitter opposition for even daring to ask such questions.
The cracks began to spread like lightning bolts……….
To say I was shocked when the house of cards collapsed would be an understatement.
My whole world evaporated before my eyes.
“Friends” who I thought were real friends disappeared,whoosh,gone,overnight!
In my greatest time of need when I needed someone to talk to,I had no one,I never felt more alone.
I want to state here though,they aren’t bad people,not at all,they are good people under a “spell/delusion” that binds them.
A “spell” that compels them to follow “the faithful and discreet slave” obediently without question.
It reminds me now of the German people under Nazism,compelled to obey by peer pressure,never to question the leadership.
JW’s are never to doubt God’s sole channel,to obey and follow no matter what,and to castigate/shun those who question the leadership.
They still ignore me to this day,it is incredible how you can be loved one day and hated the next,by your whole social circle.
Under immense pressure though,my wife,our kids,all stayed by me even though they are still witnesses.
Although it did cause an earthquake in their lives,they stood through it and we are still intact 8 years later.
I started to read the books I was told were dangerous “apostate” books …yet they were the very books that would free my mind from the “spell” I was under…and believe me I am convinced it is a form of mind manipulation/control or as some call it…undue influence.
Those books were telling me the other side of witness world,and it helped me to have an “informed” opinion,rather than a “uniform” opinion.
I had no idea I was even under such a “spell” in the slightest,however looking back I now accept it was a form of conditioning,influence……….mind control!
I had an awakening of sorts,a new realization,a paradigm shift…an enlightening!
We were told as JW’s,that “apostate” books would confuse and trick us,lead us to destruction of faith.
That is wrong!…..to have an informed opinion you need to see the other sides point of view and if you really,REALLY have the truth it should stand up to scrutiny and should swat any lies like a gnat.
I realized that the people who wrote “apostate” books weren’t the demons we were told they were.
They were merely folks who could no longer ignore that small quiet voice inside,listened to their conscience,and tried to help those imprisoned by the lies of the governing body.
Even though they knew the dramatic consequences that speaking out would lead to,such as an ousting from their social circle….as I eventually would come to realize for myself.
For anyone interested Raymond Franz was such a man,he lost everything for “TTATT” (the truth about the truth) (Jehovah’s witnesses call their religion “the truth“) and you can read his story in the book “crisis of conscience.”
The next thing that made me go “hmmm” was looking at those four signs on the zodiac wheel.
they formed a cross on the wheel.
A cross?…now isn’t that strange?
However….what did it all mean?
Why were Ezekiel and John who wrote “the book of revelations” telling us of the 4 creatures?
Ezekiel 1:10 KJV
“As for the likeness of their faces, they four had the face of a man, and the face of a lion, on the right side: and they four had the face of an ox on the left side; they four also had the face of an eagle.”
“The first creature was like a lion, and the second creature like a calf, and the third creature had a face like that of a man, and the fourth creature was like a flying eagle.”
Next time I will continue my journey.
And talk more about these 4 strange creatures and their link to the tetragrammaton,and how they symbolize the same concept….or formula!
And all Jehovah’s witnesses know about the tetragrammaton (meaning “four letters”).