“La Belle Dame sans Merci” is coming!

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O what can ail thee, knight-at-arms,
Alone and palely loitering?
The sedge has withered from the lake,
And no birds sing.

O what can ail thee, knight-at-arms,
So haggard and so woe-begone?
The squirrel’s granary is full,
And the harvest’s done.

I see a lily on thy brow,
With anguish moist and fever-dew,
And on thy cheeks a fading rose
Fast withereth too.

I met a lady in the meads,
Full beautiful—a faery’s child,
Her hair was long, her foot was light,
And her eyes were wild.

I made a garland for her head,
And bracelets too, and fragrant Zone;
She looked at me as she did love,
And made sweet moan

I set her on my pacing steed,
And nothing else saw all day long,
For sidelong would she bend, and sing
A faery’s song.

She found me roots of relish sweet,
And honey wild, and manna-dew,
And sure in language strange she said—
‘I love thee true’.

She took me to her Elfin grot,
And there she wept and sighed full sore,
And there I shut her wild wild eyes
With kisses four.

And there she lullèd me asleep,
And there I dreamed—Ah! woe betide!—
The latest dream I ever dreamt
On the cold hill side.

I saw pale kings and princes too,
Pale warriors, death-pale were they all;
They cried—‘La Belle Dame sans Merci
Hath thee in thrall!’

I saw their starved lips in the gloam,
With horrid warning gapèd wide,
And I awoke and found me here,
On the cold hill’s side.

And this is why I sojourn here,
Alone and palely loitering,
Though the sedge is withered from the lake,
And no birds sing.

Who…or rather “what” is Keats talking about in this poem?

Again this picture of the sine wave should clue us in to what the poem is about.

rsz_1zodiac_sine_waveOn the left of the graph above,you see Aries the ram.

Aries is ruled by the planet Mars!

Mars is the warrior,the God of war(think of martial law and martial arts…they come from Mars),he is the knight-at-arms in Keats’s poem above,Mars kicks off the male/life/light/growth part of the yearly cycle in March 21st….(March is named after Mars)….this is the upper arch in the graph above.

Remember the male part of the year is Spring and Summer,the male represents the light…again…think of the Sun…if you have a male child he is your son…or Sun.

The light is needed for things to grow….and spring/summer is the part of the year when the earth grows things.

This is known in freemasonry as the royal arch.

The 6 months of light.

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However,autumn and winter are the female,dark part of the year.

The lower arch of the sine wave (notice there is no colour in the bottom part of the sine wave?) starts in the sign of Libra on September 22nd/23rd…..and that is the part of the sine wave/cycle the poem is dealing with.

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This is the “female” part of the sine wave. The dark/deadly/cold/negative part of the sine wave which gives us autumn and winter.Santos Bonacci says this is the magnetic part of the “pulse” of the sine wave,the drawing in/attractive part of the zodiacal cycle and all other cycles…..the zodiac is in all cycles.This  negative part of the sine wave starts at Libra in the yearly cycle. Evening in the daily cycle.

The male part of the day is morning and afternoon….light/active.

Evening and nighttime is the dark/passive part of the day’s cycle…the female.

Being awake and active is your “male” part of your daily life cycle.

Being asleep and dreaming is the female part of your daily life cycle….the female passive.

I wrote before that “vertical” is the male and “horizontal” the female a blog or two ago.

Think of the vertical parts of the four seasons…they are called the “SOLstices”….and again “Sol” is the sun…..the male.

The equinoxes are the female,”Equi-NOX” means equal nights,and again it links us with the female/horizontal part of the year……nox/night being the equivalent of winter/female/dark….the feminine principle/the dark in the yin/yang….again two males and two females.

Freemasons call the two solstices the “two St. Johns” or “Holy Saints John”

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Holy Saints John

http://www.themasonictrowel.com/Articles/Symbolism/st_johns_files/two_st_johns.htm

Now with the understanding that we are dealing with the autumn equinox and the meeting of the two forces at this special time of the year (male and female)….let’s have a look at the poem again.

Keats is talking about the end of the spring/summer/male/growth part of the season.

Mars…and the Sun’s time is almost extinguished at the sign of Libra……in fact there are only two times every year where the male and female parts of the year meet or join together.

The Spring Equinox,which we have seen in the “Aries and the lamb of god” blog.

And the other is the Autumnal equinox,and this is what we are looking at in Keats’s poem and this blog.

The two equinoxes when the Sun and Saturn “meet.”

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They also “meet” in Aries.

Important info below,for understanding these concepts.

Saturn exalts in Libra,and the Sun falls,whereas it’s the opposite in Aries.

Mars is in his detriment in the sign of Libra also…the warrior has come to his end at the hand of the maiden Venus.

http://therealastrology.com/information/detrimental-planets.html

Scroll down in the above link to see Mars is in detriment in Libra.

Notice Venus and Saturn in Libra both “bring down” the Sun and Mars. (Saturn is Satan and Venus is Eve in the bible drama of “the fall of MAN” (Sun/Mars).

Saturn and the Sun are opposites as are Mars and Venus.

The darkness has returned to the earth…the “dark maiden” of Solomon’s song is back on the scene.

The dark part of the yin/yang………yin!

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She is beautiful….and yet she is deadly……without mercy.

And aren’t both Autumn and Winter deadly….without mercy…and yet beautiful also?

The female of the species is deadlier than the male.

The female equates to Isis…whose veil mortals can never uncover.

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The statue of the veiled Isis given to Herbert Hoover by the Belgians.

http://www.nps.gov/heho/learn/historyculture/isis-statue.htm

She is the occult/left handed/sinister maiden.

She is the black widow….black again because Saturn starts his rule…he exalts in Libra to start his rule over the dark part of the year.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Isis

Notice in the wiki page above Isis is also called “Aset” or “Iset”…….which equates also to “Set”…..the dark god who is the enemy of Horus….and also sunset….just as the sun goes into the underworld and darkness arrives on the earth.

Saturn’s colour is black…..as is Isis’s colour (along with green)….the terrorist group ISIS have black flags do they not,and the colour of flags of Islam are green..are they not?

Isis’s colour is black because of Saturn and the soil/night/winter/darkness….and death!…the female part of the cycle.

But on another level….white,Isis name connects with Ice.(all the colours of light make white light…all the colours of matter..e.g paint when mixed make black)

Notice the poem says….

“O what can ail thee, knight-at-arms,
Alone and palely loitering?
The sedge has withered from the lake,
And no birds sing.”

He is talking about the end of the growth cycle on the earth!

“O what can ail thee, knight-at-arms,
So haggard and so woe-begone?
The squirrel’s granary is full,
And the harvest’s done.”

The haggard light has almost perished from the earth….the harvest is over…the squirrel has gathered the food to get it through the dark part of the yearly cycle.

The harvest is over….no more growth.

I met a lady in the meads,
Full beautiful—a faery’s child,
Her hair was long, her foot was light,
And her eyes were wild.”

The knight or male “force” meets a lady in the meadow….this is the coming together of the male and female part of the year…the meeting of the two at the autumn equinox….the male part of the year is about to hand over the reign to the female/beautiful…yet dark/cruel/deadly part of the year.

“I made a garland for her head,
And bracelets too, and fragrant Zone;
She looked at me as she did love,
And made sweet moan

I set her on my pacing steed,
And nothing else saw all day long,
For sidelong would she bend, and sing
A faery’s song.”

http://www.john-keats.com/phpboard/viewtopic.php?f=5&t=1044

Notice that they meet and interact?

Again this is the “Hieros Gamos.”

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hieros_gamos

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Also if you look at the picture above near the bottom of the wiki page mentioned…you will see the hieros gamos pic above is called “fermentatio“…..and isn’t it this part of the year that the grapes are picked and fermented into wine?

Santos Bonacci makes an interesting point,when he says Jesus (the sun) is crucified four times every year (hence the four accounts of his crucifixion in each of the four gospels)….at the two solstices and two equinoxes…….he explains how one of the accounts of the crucifixion of Jesus is talking about the Autumnal equinox.

In talking about these verses from John 19:29,30.

The Death of Jesus
29A jar full of sour wine was standing there; so they put a sponge full of the sour wine upon a branch of hyssop and brought it up to His mouth. 30Therefore when Jesus had received the sour wine, He said, “It is finished!” And He bowed His head and gave up His spirit.
Santos says that this is the end of the wine making part of the year,where the last of the wine turns to vinegar…and in ancient times the priests would say…”it is finished!”
The wine making is done.
There are two passovers every year…the spring passover (march 21st) when the sun is on it’s way up to the tropic of cancer/longest day.
And the autumnal Passover,(or rather a passunder/assunder) (september 23rd)…when the sun is on its way down to the tropic of Capricorn/shortest day/death and rebirth of the Sun.

Next notice Keats says this:-

And there she lullèd me asleep,
And there I dreamed—Ah! woe betide!—
The latest dream I ever dreamt
On the cold hill side.

I saw pale kings and princes too,
Pale warriors, death-pale were they all;
They cried—‘La Belle Dame sans Merci
Hath thee in thrall!’

Spring/summer is the awakening of the earth…when things come (spring) to life.

However autumn/winter is when the earth goes to sleep/and the sun is in its sleep part of the cycle/sine wave…just as we are when it gets dark.(we sleep and dream too!)

And again he talks about pale warriors……and death!

This is the same symbolism contained in the vision of the four horsemen (see previous blog)

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Notice the horsemen coincide with the autumnal zodiac signs,The black horse represents Libra (see the scales of Libra in his hand?),Scorpio(the red horse,Scorpio is ruled by Mars and the colour of Mars is red.Also Mars is the god of war/sword) Then next in the cycle of the zodiac is Sagittarius (horse and man with a bow) these three signs signify death to all growth on the earth…..and the pale horse of death (Capricorn ruled by Saturn the grim reaper/old father time/death) that walks behind these three autumnal death bringing signs….however there is hope in this picture….see the lamb of Aries in the distance?….the return of the dawn and light to the earth in the form of the new age of Aquarius. (The lamb represents the dawning of the new age…and if you’ve been following the blog….dawn/spring starts in Aries the lamb/sheep/ram)

Another wee side note……notice Keats has the knight kiss the “belle dame”…how many times?

“And there I shut her wild wild eyes
With kisses four.”

From the four seasons to the four elements…..the four is ubiquitous in myth and scripture…….it is represented by the cross in Christianity.

Again as seen in previous blogs,this same allegory is seen in paintings,such as this one below “Venus and Mars” by Botticelli.

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notice that there just happen to be four satyrs and one of them is trying to waken Mars up! (Spring is approaching) Also note the implements of a knight belonging to Mars…he is a man of war just like the knight in Keats poem.

Mars is sleeping…just like the knight in Keats’s poem……And Venus is awake.(it is winter).

A good thing to remember would be that Mars rules Aries (spring equinox)…light/day,which kicks off the six months of light and growth.

And Venus rules Libra….the autumnal equinox….dark/night….Libra kicks off the six months of darkness and death.

Mars and Venus are two opposites…..Mars starts the light part of the cycle off and Venus starts the dark part of the cycle.

The picture above is telling us of the female/dark/night/winter part of the cycle.

This part of the year is talked about in allegory in the bible for instance in the Song of Solomon chapter 5 verses 5-8 where the dark maiden says

5 I rose up to open to my beloved; and my hands dropped [with] myrrh, and my fingers [with] sweet smelling myrrh, upon the handles of the lock.

6 I opened to my beloved; but my beloved had withdrawn himself, [and] was gone: my soul failed when he spake: I sought him, but I could not find him; I called him, but he gave me no answer.

7 The watchmen that went about the city found me, they smote me, they wounded me; the keepers of the walls took away my veil from me.

8 I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem, if ye find my beloved, that ye tell him, that I [am] sick of love.

However there is another secret contained in the scriptures.

Satan/Saturn/Lucifer is both male and female.

Isaiah 14:12

How art thou fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning! how art thou cut down to the ground, which didst weaken the nations!

In one sense it is talking about the sun as it heads down into the wintry part of the cycle….the son/sun of the morning…yes!

The sun is the morning star….the sun is a star that arrives every morning!

However Lucifer is also Venus….the feminine….Sophia…..the light bearer!

Just as the woman bears children,the darkness/Isis gives birth to light.

(Isis is the light bearer,she says the fruit she brings forth (bears) is the sun)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lucifer

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sophia_%28name%29

And doesn’t Sofia mean “wisdom”…and isn’t that connected with Eve and “wisdom” from eating the apple….Eve is Lucifer (Lucifer means light-bearer)…..the female.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lucifer#Mythology_behind_Isaiah_14:12

And that is why Lucifer is female in the film “the ninth gate”

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Lucifer falls from heaven….a heavenly fall.

The story of Eve and the fruit is called “the fall of man” where they fall from Eden/paradise/garden/heaven……an earthly fall.

So we have two “falls.”

From that fall Adam and Eve gained wisdom,knowledge of good and bad.

Genesis 3:22 notes, “The man has now become like one of us, knowing good and evil.”

They became like the gods!

Nighttime is the time to receive wisdom and knowledge,the darkness is that what gives knowledge and wisdom…the occult…the hidden treasures of the bible.

You find hidden gems in the dark soil,and pearls in the deep water, hidden in the oyster shell.Notice the two elements involved,earth and water?……earth and water are the female elements….the dark maiden!

This is why the owl is a symbol of wisdom…..it is connected to night and darkness.

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That is why occult literature (including the bible when we look under the surface) gives knowledge and wisdom….notice the owl with books. (Libra/Library/Liberty).

(The candle in the round dish representing sex/wisdom/knowing(when Adam and Eve had sex..the bible says he “knew” his wife) the straight candle is the penis/the round dish the vagina).

Knowing is connected to wisdom and also sex.

John 17:3

Now this is eternal life: that they know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent.

When talking about Adam and Eve having sex….the bible says this

Genesis 4:1

And Adam knew Eve his wife; and she conceived, and bare Cain, and said, I have gotten a man from the LORD.

Just another side note,when I was a Jehovah’s Witness,the JW bible (New World Translation) said this at John 17:3.

“This means everlasting life…taking in knowledge of you and of the one you sent forth”

Whereas all other bibles say this:-

Now this is eternal life: that they know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent.

You may say…what’s the difference?

“Knowing” and “taking in knowledge” are two different things entirely…you might take in knowledge of some film star from books,however you don’t know them like their husband/wife does….the bible is talking about this intimate “knowing” (gnosis).

Looking again to the owl above…isn’t the sign of Libra the start of the autumn/winter cycle/darkness…and isn’t the word “Libra” contained in library…connected to the books that the owl is sitting on.(“wisdom” comes also from books/”sex” on another higher plane)

Doesn’t Isis (Satan/darkness/female/matter) give birth to light?

“The fruit I bring forth is the sun,” she says.

The darkness gives birth to light!

This is why priests wear black robes…feminine attire….representing darkness/Libra/female/wisdom/Saturn…..and the white collar with the head representing the light arising out of the darkness.

The balance of the two forces!

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Also judges….and that is why they wear a lambs wool wig representing the light of Aries.

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Dagon is a god who is connected to the sea and fish.

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Dagon coming out from the sea,and the dark and the moon….. All female symbolism…winter/dark (and even “evil” as we perceive it on our plane of consciousness).

 

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 Dagon or Oannes coming out from the sea.

If you read my blog on sex and religion…the name “Oannes”/Jonah/john is connected to the yoni.

The yoni is the vagina,the female,and it links to the fish,and the vesica piscis…(bladder of the fish).

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notice the vesica piscis.

Venus is also connected to the sea….just like Dagon!

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What Venus and Dagon represent is again the dark half of the year…the feminine…”the beautiful woman without mercy” as Keats calls her.

Also,Satan or Saturn,the ruler of the lower forces and planet earth in that he symbolizes time and restriction/hardship/teaches lessons.

Remember in the tree of life,the male pillar is called “mercy“and the female pillar is called “severity“,she is severe,not merciful,whereas you think it would/should be the other way round.

She is without mercy……”La belle dame sans merci.”

And is it only wordplay that Dagon who represents the darkness is pronounced “day-gone.”

I heard the above Dagon/daygone listening to an interview with an occultist.

The feminine is Satan in disguise.

“You look like an angel/walk like an angel/talk like an angel……but I got WISE (wisdom)…..you’re the devil in disguise…..oh yes you are…the devil in disguise”

That is why there is a “Bearded Venus”…the “Venus Barbata”

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Venus_Barbata

This is why Baphomet has both male and female parts.

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There is a lot of symbolism going on in the above picture…let’s have a look at some of it

Notice the four elements?

FIRE coming from the head.

AIR represented by the wings.

WATER represented by the fish scales in the half circle round the penis.

EARTH represented by the goats feet.

The male/female…yin/yang.

MALE represented by the penis.

FEMALE represented by the breasts.

The shape the arms are making…giving us the hermetic saying…”As above …so below”

Or as it is said in the bible….Matthew 6:9,10

9“Pray, then, in this way: ‘Our Father who is in heaven, Hallowed be Your name. 10‘Your kingdom come. Your will be done, On earth as it is in heaven.

Notice also the two serpents around the penis of Baphomet above…..does it remind you of anything?

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Now thanks to Baphomet you know what the staff of Hermes is….the penis. (also the spine)

This is Mercury or Hermes……..the hermaphroditic god

And the word “hermaphrodite” consists of Hermes (mercury)….and Aphrodite (venus).

The word “herm” or “herma” is linked with “penis” also.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Herma

again the male/female!

And remember Hermes/Mercury is the trickster….as is Satan!

http://study.com/academy/lesson/the-greek-god-hermes-facts-myths-symbols.html

And “the greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he (she) didn’t exist”

So we have the symbols of the fish,and the goat in the symbol of Baphomet,and again isn’t the fish and goat the symbol of Capricorn?

imagesA woman’s vagina has a goat’s beard (goatee),the vagina is connected to the fish (the smell and also the Vesica Piscis),again the fish and goat!

Capricorn is connected to the fish and goat….this is the feminine,CARDINAL EARTH sign.

Some satanists have a goatee beard too,because they understand that it represents the winter part of the cycle/and the feminine/sinister,and the darkest part of winter is the winter solstice in Capricorn (midnight of the year),which is ruled by Saturn.

http://english.stackexchange.com/questions/39092/how-did-sinister-the-latin-word-for-left-handed-get-its-current-meaning

and satanists follow the left hand (female) path.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Left-hand_path_and_right-hand_path

Walter Raleigh shows us a picture of “the hidden one” in “The history of the world”

See if you can see the old goat hidden in the picture.

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The two arms of the person holding up the world are the horns…..the two ears are out at either side…the two breasts are the two eyes…and then you will see the beard below

The Old goat/Saturn/Satan is the ruler of the world after all!

2nd Corinthians 4:4

Satan, who is the god of this world, has blinded the minds of those who don’t believe. They are unable to see the glorious light of the Good News. They don’t understand this message about the glory of Christ, who is the exact likeness of God.”

Notice in that verse….Satan/Saturn blinds and stops people from seeing the light….again symbolism of winter/darkness.

He is Elus,(the Elus-ive one),Kronos/Chronos/Saturn.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/El_%28deity%29#Sanchuniathon

https://books.google.co.uk/books?id=UbsGAgAAQBAJ&pg=PA42&lpg=PA42&dq=Elus+kronos&source=bl&ots=N1aQ70Zr4m&sig=DS_E0FMMONFD2tL2tPfN2EYbV1o&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0CEIQ6AEwBWoVChMI0_uVjf-WxwIVQfEUCh08Ogph#v=onepage&q=Elus%20kronos&f=false

Chronos/Saturn/Santa/Satan/Old (Saint) Nick (Santa comes at the winter solstice (Capricorn) does he not?)…..Satan also brings gifts to those who do good…..remember all Gods/Goddesses/concepts/forces/symbols have a good and bad side.

For example…Venus is the Goddess/concept/force of love/desire…now love is a good thing is it not……however we also get the word “venereal” from Venus…the 7 planets or forces all have a good and bad side…7 virtues and 7 vices.

All symbols are neutral…it is our programs and prejudices and desires/actions that give them charge.

Aleister Crowley has this to say about “symbols” in “The book of Thoth.”…

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if you’ve been following this blog and grasping some of the concepts….the footnote should also be of some interest to you! Crowley tells us to note the “N” of Jonah…..what does that mean? What does the letter “N” (Nun) mean in Aramaic/Arabic?

Santa is Saint Nicholas,Satan is also known as Old Nick is he not?

Just like Isis,Saturn has 1000 names!

Saturn is also the shadow/shade/darkness.

Whereas Jesus is the light of the world,and Satan is the shade/shadow/hidden one.

The Star of David is the 6 pointed star….which has a hexagon in the middle of it (which can also be a 2d representation of a cube)

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Remember the cube has six sides….Saturn(time and restriction) has us trapped inside the box or cube of time and space…(see the blog on the Sefer Yetzirah for more on the cube of space)….when the box opens or unfolds…or it is revealed or unveiled (apocalypse or revelation)…it becomes a cross!…Jesus dies on the cross to free us from the box we are in..his death opens the box….it happens every year when the sun dies at the winter solstice and the new sun is born…….before the next box or cube arrives…see the dimensions of the box or cube of new Jerusalem in revelations…the box/cube of the new age to come!And isn’t it also convenient that when Santa/Saturn arrives we open boxes…we even call it boxing day.
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when the box opens it becomes a cross!

 

And the planet Saturn has a hexagon on its north pole also.

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Saturn rules the dark part of the days cycle……..from sundown onwards.

And the Jewish people start their day at….sundown/sunset.

And again is it only coincidence that the Jewish new year (Rosh Hashanah) starts just at the autumnal equinox….the sunset of the year?

Rosh Hashanah means head of the year.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rosh_Hashanah

The “Jews” are the ones who celebrate the dark part of the cycle,the night/winter part of the cycle,the wisdom part of the cycle…..they are the wise ones.

They are the wise ones/the cunning ones,cunning related to “cunny”,the vagina where we get the word “cunt” from…or “cunnilingus”…again it isn’t bad,it is only a word.

 

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notice the word “kunna” means to know which takes us back to the connection between “sex” and “knowing.”

“Honi soit qui mal y pense”……”Evil be to him who evil thinks

Kundalini contains both kund/cunt (female),and lini/lingam (male)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kundalini

In other words….the male and the female forces in the human body.

Samuel Pepys wrote in his diary about the time he got caught with his hand up the maids skirt….

“And after supper, to have my head combed by Deb, which occasioned the greatest sorrow to me that ever I knew in this world; for my wife, coming up suddenly, did find me embracing the girl with my hand under her skirts; and indeed, I was with my hand in her cunny.”

(Diary entry “25th October 1668”)

Oops!…..maybe he should have been more “cunning.”

Cunning/wisdom/Sophia/knowing are all to do with the feminine principle….the female/winter/satan/saturn part of the cycle.

I do hope you are starting to see the patterns and connecting things for yourself,because as I keep saying,it is only you that can awaken yourself,anyone else can only be the seed planter,it is your meditation and research that can awaken your higher consciousness.

1st Corinthians 3:5-7

What then is Apollos? And what is Paul? Servants through whom you believed, even as the Lord gave opportunity to each one. I planted, Apollos watered, but God was causing the growth. So then neither the one who plants nor the one who waters is anything, but God who causes the growth.

The “God” who makes the seed grow is your higher self….your unfurling rose of higher consciousness from within yourself.

“Enlightenment”

And with that it’s time to end this blog.

Thanks for reading,fellow peoples of the planet!

 

 

 

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9 thoughts on ““La Belle Dame sans Merci” is coming!

  1. Really enjoying your blog. I am a Jehovah’s Witness and I have followed a similar path to yours though I have never left the organisation and have found a way to remain happily part of the congregation while following my own spiritual promptings. I have read the books you quote from and came to similar conclusions. It is interesting that the revised version of the New World Translation at John 17:3 now does say everlasting life comes from knowing God rather than taking in knowledge. I feel that there are a lot of changes occurring and there is much more emphasis on personal gnosis within the literature. The chariot is moving but can the rank and file keep up and do they really want change?

    1. Hi Rainbow
      Thanks for your comment!
      I did not know that the NWT had changed John 17:3…wow!
      I wonder what will happen to the organization as the new changes keep-a-coming.
      I’m sure you’ve seen the Australian Royal Commission stuff which is really interesting also.
      Have you watched Santos Bonacci?…he’s another ex-JW who left at the same time as myself and read the books we have been reading…isn’t that strange?
      I met Santos when he visited Britain and gave him my 150 year old books of the Devils pulpit by the Rev Robert Taylor which he says were his biggest inspiration for his lectures.

      Peace!
      Regards!

  2. I watched all the Santos Bonacci videos on You Tube, a while back, and found them fascinating, I believe that he has had a horrendous time pursuing truth but that seems to be par for the course. I did not know that he had been a Jehovah’s Witness. I have a strong spiritual need and I have been praying so hard to find the truth and live a spiritual life, I never imagined that it would be so hard or take me into such unlikely realms. I have been to hell and back but I am hanging in there.

    Amos 5 has kept me going particularly verses 13 and 14 (revised N WT) I want the Jehovah’s Witnesses to tell the truth, whatever that might be, but finding truth anywhere amongst all the smoke and mirrors is incredibly tough in all organisations is incredibly tough. It is lovely to know there are genuine truth seekers roving about out there. Keep strong!!

  3. Hi me again! I have been thinking about you and Santos and I am in the process of going through all the information from you both, more carefully, as it represents a huge amount of valuable research. I sincerely thank you for sharing it, that takes courage.

    I would be very interested in your thoughts on Genesis 49, for as stated in verse 1 this is a prophecy for the last days and verse 22 would indicate that Joseph was the key, not Judah. In verse 9 of chapter 37 the sun and moon and 11 stars or 13 in total are bowing down to Joseph the 14th man. I have been thinking about Ophiuchus lately, the Serpent healer, who is supposedly Joseph and wondering whether we should be embracing our shadow, our female side, the unconscious side of our existence and exposing it to the light. In this way we can move up the evolving spiral rather than continually moving around it. I feel that humanity has been stuck for aeons and it is time for a change. What do you think?

    I had a dream to this effect recently. I was in the house of Bread and I heard a baby crying. When I went upstairs I found I had given birth to a black serpent, who was lying on my bed. It was looking at a white Serpent opposite it and saying, “please don’t eat me”. I then heard the words Caput 53. How weird is that !!! Welcome to my life!!!!

    1. Hi Rainbow!

      I’ll need to chew over your take on Joseph and Judah,very interesting.(you should start your blog)

      It must be difficult contemplating all this stuff and going to the KH every week.

      Do you have family in also?….if so do you discuss any of this thinking with them?

      If so what do they think?

  4. Most of my extended family are Witnesses, my husband is a well used and effective elder and a loving husband. My son is very happy as a baptised young witness who wants to be involved in international construction. I am part of a lovely congregation, which is why it is so difficult to leave and a number of the members, not including me, are very free thinkers and seem to get away with it!

    I suppose I now think of the Jehovah Witnesses as my culture and family, but I have given myself license to follow my own leanings, whether that is right or wrong is debatable but I do all my research in secrecy and the only books in my house are Watchtower sanctioned. I have to be very, very careful not to upset the apple cart.

    My heart goes out to you, and I admire you for being open, honest and upfront and sticking with your family. I imagine it must be difficult for them to engage with you in discussions on the books and websites that you have frequented as they are absolute JW no nos.

    The more I search for answers the more questions I have but I do know in my heart that I nolonger want to be part of duality, choosing good or evil, but that I want to in some way embrace the whole. Whether that is a pipe dream of a naive, fantacist only time will tell. God bless you whatever that may mean.

  5. Thanks for the add, biblodiac. I meant to head on over and tell you that I borrowed and linked your post .. what information you have here!! Have to come back to finish and process. Thanks!!

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